moving and the stresses of...

So it's that time again.. our lease on the house we are living in is up at the end of the month. I have been looking since before the beginning of this month only to find out that most of these rental places wont talk to you so far out.. * they want people to move in NOW!... and i find that rather retarded, are they not screening people very well? are they only concerned about how much money they can shove down their throats.? do they not really care about the type of people they are letting live there? * all of these are basically a yes..
so i had to stop looking for a few weeks and now i have to start looking again, meanwhile my other half thought it would be a good idea to go to FL. for two weeks just before this move and his car had the brakes go out.. so now i have no car, and no one to go look at places with me and I'm basically expected to find a place in time by myself.. yeah right!
meanwhile i keep having issues with our current housemates.. and dont know how to really rectify it either.

Now i'm being told that my other half wants to move to south FL. for this studio he is working with .. he being offered alot by a low no name studio, they are wanting to use his name to boost their site, they are not able to pay him alot, when they have him come out they dont have the shoots in any order or on any sort of schedule, he doesn't even know between today and saturday if they have any shoots planned, he's in the same house as the director and he cant seem to get any info out of him.. i'm just like WOW your serious you want to trust these people who obviously cant handle things in any sort of timely manner.. the site looks like crap, there's SOOOOO much i could go on about the site..** and these are MAJOR issues i see**  as far as i know there are not alot of studios GOOD CREDITABLE studios in FL. anymore they are mainly little fly by night stuff, and i dont think it's a good idea to move their for either of us.. i wouldn't be able to film as much because all the studios i apply too or already work for are predominately here in CA. not FL.  i have already did th FL. thing when i was a twink and it burned me.. and i dont want to see him make the same mistake that i made my alienating ourselves to FL. all for this second rate studio... now IF the things that have been promised to him happen in a relatively short time .. then MAYBE MAYBE we can think about it more.. but that's anywhere from 6 months- a year and 6 months away..   it's bad enough that right now he goes out for two weeks and has three shoots.. i'm like "are you fucking serious..? three shoots in two weeks WTF were you doing the whole sitting on your ass..?"   and in short YES he did...   and this will be happening like this every few weeks to every month..? WHY???? why are they SOOOO fucked when it comes to a shooting schedule, why is he such a pansy when it comes to talking with them about these things .. and why do i have to do so much thinking for the both of us.. ?

i just want things to ride smoothly for awhile.. i'm so aggravated that i see SOOO much that can be improved on but for shear lack of any initiative that it isnt done! and it sickens me

well enough out of me for now.. i need to do the mundane task of walking to a potential place and go through what i consider insanity.... doing the same thing over and over getting the same results but expecting new ones...  so YAY lets go spread stupidity more..  * twirls finger  whoo-hoo...

Derrick

my first tarrot reading

So right off the bat.. i'm a bit skeptical and purposely go into things like this with a closed mind.. this was no different.
what i did notice was a few odd things that happen'd
#1. the nutrition card came up like 4 times before during the shuffle and then during the reading..
#2. i was told that i am a first * meaning this is the first time my soul/ energy has been to earth.
 thats a good and bad thing i guess.. and kinda falls inline to a few things. mainly this issue that i feel like the universe is out to get me, karmailicly if it were.... meaning that since i havent been here long i dont have anything built up good or bad.. so when i do something i get the karma back almost instantly... it also explains why i am such a child at eart, and why i am so amazed at everything around me. it also makes me more sensitive to others energies..** all things he told me that i kept quiet on until the end.
#3. that my endeavores should go off with out a hitch, * promotions in work, money being a very easily come by thing. and that i in my circles tend to every 9 years remake myself and right now i'm on my 7th cycle so the next two years will do alot for me.
he was in my opion wrong about his initial take on me and dustin and that he may have back peddled abit but.. he did say right off the bat that HIS energy and any info on HIM *dustin was very difficult to see.. but me it was rather easy..

the main things i was concerned about he said that i need not worry about them keep my head down and keep doing what i have been and things will very shortly work themselves out again..

he picked up on my military background, and a few other tid bits just for me  :D

but yeah i thought i should write this down for later and for sharing to you all..
ok byes

my first tattoo and my first blogg

well how too start.. I think I'll start the way my tattoo artist *sierra colt* got into the second part of my tattoo today.  Let's just jump in both feet!

So Hi I'm not really Derrick Paul it's my stage name .. but I also have a pup name *we'll cover that in a moment* but the pup name is ZigZag, so I'll answer to any of them.  So as for the pup name, I am a rubber pup.. that means that I  #1 like bdsm mainly pup play and rubber/latex

today was massively intense as you will hear. I got my first tattoo finished, I did a dragon wing design across my shoulders and double half sleeves. As i am sitting here writing i am freezing and throbbing at the same time lol.. also a lil light headed.. * all signs of shock, mind you* lol

plus me and my BF of three years now have decided that we wan to get married. * i'm happy